i didn’t know – prose for a sunday night | BLOGtober day 2

The last time we talked I said that I loved you right back
The last time we woke I saw the pain in your eyes beginning to crawl back
I didn’t know love could come on this strong
I didn’t know love could run so deep
I didn’t know love could force me to hurt you when really I was just looking out for me
But I don’t know if love is what exists between you and me

beginning of BLOGtober | the importance of challenging yourself

Today is the FIRST DAY OF HALLOWEEN!!! or October if you’re not Halloween obsessed like I am. It’s my favorite holiday and I feel that it deserves a month-long celebration.

It is also the first day of Blog-tober (still working out how I’m going to stylize the name) and I am so ready for this challenge to roll. Ever since I saw one of my favorite bloggers, Helene in Between, do Blogtober a couple years ago, I always thought to myself “I wish I could do that”.

Some of my favorite YouTubers take on the “Vlogmas” challenge every year and I love seeing what they come up with. You could say I’ve been observing and “sponging” (soaking everything up – yes I made this word up) for a while now.

Well here I am two years later, many vlogs down, and one very necessary attitude adjustment (I despise the phrase “I wish”) and I’m DOING THE DAMN THING! Blogtober Challenge…Accepted!

I think it’s very important to challenge yourself, in many different ways and areas of life. For example, two years ago I decided I was going to train for and run in the Salt Lake City Half Marathon. I was so proud of myself for completing the race that I decided to do it again the next year. Challenge accepted and succeeded.

Through the preparation and actual running of the race I learned how to persevere in order to accomplish my goal even if things got difficult and physically uncomfortable.

I find that challenging yourself is not only a way to spice life up and actually go out and live it, but to also keep sharp in other areas. It’s been proven that physical activity helps relieve stress and having things to look forward to (a daily challenge to accomplish perhaps?) helps to motivate us as humans through the more mundane parts of our day.

Here’s to challenging myself this October! I don’t have a set structure or prompts that I’m following or a certain post time, the daily blogging after I’ve been so inconsistent with it for the last few years is enough for me!

Be sure to subscribe to see this BLOGtober Challenge go down! : D

*Note:: all of these photos were taken in Vegas LAST October.

And yes that is Skrillex : ) ↓

talkin’ post festival blues | life is beautiful recap!

After one month, the EDC Las Vegas withdrawals had finally set in and I was DYING for another festival. Thankfully this weekend brought Life is Beautiful Festival, set in Downtown Las Vegas. It was a weekend of sunny, mellow days and cool fall nights with a healthy dose of art, music, good vibes, and DANCING. ALL. THE DANCING.

This was my very first time attending the festival and I can say I was very impressed overall. I find the vibes at a festival to be crucial and at LIB they were soooo good. Everyone I ran into seemed genuinely stoked to be there, willing to take a photo for you, and eager to make room on the dance floor. Or maybe they were sick of getting hit in the face with my hair. This is a very real and understandable possibility.

Another impressive part about this festival was the art installations. From the pinata motel to the murals on the buildings, DTLV was looking so beautiful and I was proud to be a Las Vegas local!



The selling point of this festival for me was the lineup. When it was released in May, I couldn’t believe the variety in terms of performers and I purchased tickets the same day. I loved being able to see G-Eazy, The Temper Trap, The Lumineers, Die Antwoord, and Duke Dumont all in the same weekend. I love a good mellow set (The Lumineers) for being able to chill out before I go show off my fancy footwork (Duke Dumont + a dark dance floor = a happy Jess).



I was so happy that I finally got to see Gryffin, Zhu, CID, Mija, and The Lumineers and none of their sets disappointed. Festivals provide such a great opportunity to discover new acts and it’s become one of my favorite things to do. Before this weekend I had never listened to KAYTRANADA, but he had one of thee grooviest sets of the weekend. And I didn’t really care about seeing Ghastly, but I went because my friends wanted to and I was so glad I did.




I also have to mention the backdrop to this three day beauty: Downtown Las Vegas, or DTLV as I lovingly call it. Being a Vegas local has been such a fun experience for me over the last year. I absolutely love telling people that I live here and how unique this city is. This festival created an environment that complimented Downtown perfectly and showed attendees a side of the city not everyone sees.



Festivals are about getting lost, opening your mind to new experiences, chilling out and generally enjoying your life. Eliminating the bullshit and having the time of your life dancing, vibing, and letting the music speak. I swear I’ve learned more about life and who I am through festivals than half of my college classes.

And even though my neck is sore from Excision and I’m walking with a limp because my left calf is sore from attempting to shuffle – yes, just one calf – I can confidently say that the post festival blues are so real.

This weekend truly was a fantastic and beautiful experience.

Thanks Life is Beautiful!!

So…how long until next year?

tonight’s the night | what’s a registered independent to do?


Tonight, September 26, marks the first official Presidential debate between the two candidates. Where has the time gone? I miss the days of last fall for a few reasons: the class I took at CSN, the days discovering the hidden gems of my new neighbourhood, and the ridiculously entertaining political debates.

I loved watching the Republican debates for the sheer amount of people on the stage. These televised spectacles seemed akin to the “Real Housewives” because of all the drama, emotion, talking over each other, and too many faces to keep the names and tag lines straight.

The Democratic debates were equally entertaining. With far less people on the stage, it was easier to pay attention to what was happening and the actual discussions. Every time Bernie started talking all I wanted was to be his grandchild and to visit him at his home in Vermont, hopefully a cabin. We would make dinner, wear delightfully tacky sweaters, and he would reminisce about his days of protesting.

Fast forward to now, this year, the year we vote for our next President. The next leader of thee greatest country on Earth and spouse of the follow up to Michelle Obama’s Carpool Karaoke. (Which was fantastic btw.)

And I can honestly say…that I am terrified to vote. But at the same time, I’m terrified NOT to vote. What’s a registered independent to do?

There are a couple local issues here in Nevada that I want to put my vote towards. However, in terms of the national election, I can’t say I want to participate.

I must admit, when The Donald was the host of “The Apprentice” and he was building his business, I was a fan. Last year when he was opening his mouth and letting whatever he wanted fall out, I found it hilarious. But when everyone started dropping out of the race and it looked like he was on his way to solidifying the nomination, I was horrified. I could not and still cannot believe the nation let someone like this get this far. A poor, poor representation of who we are as a country. His attitude, negativity, and disregard for thinking before speaking are enough to make me cringe.

On the other side, I can’t say I’ve ever been a fan of Hillary. I don’t like the amount of political scandals she’s been involved with. (However, I will acknowledge the fact that when you’ve been in the political arena as long as she has this type of thing is inevitable.) I also don’t like the fact that she’s giving speeches about equality wearing suits that cost more than one year’s rent here in Vegas.

I do want to mention a moment I found very important and powerful.  As I watched the Democratic National Convention and the video presentation about Hillary’s nomination, I teared up. I felt so proud and excited that finally, finally a woman was nominated to be President. While we were always told growing up that a woman could be President, we never saw it. And as a visual learner, seeing is everything to me. This moment was a powerful visual representation meant to empower women and girls growing up today and it’s something I will never forget.

So it begs the question, do I want a woman to be the President?

Answer: I want anyone, regardless of gender, race, sexuality etc. to be President, IF and only IF they are qualified.

Unfortunately, Hillary’s not the one for me.

So what am I to do? I’ll be 25 at the end of this year and I’m voting for the person who will be the leader of our country for the next 4-8 years. If we look at recent trends, Presidents usually end up serving two terms. Which means we’re selecting the course of our country, society, and economy for the next 10 years.

This means we have to look at ourselves, our lives, and what we want those to become over the next 10 years. I feel it’s important to take this into account when voting. Which candidate will help our country, society, and economy not only survive, but thrive for the next 10 years?

At this point in time, I still don’t see the candidate and I still don’t have the answer.

Maybe tonight’s debate will help provide some clarity?


photos: Marc Nozell & Ninian Reid via Creative Commons