Well, well, welllll…..
It’s been a while. Quite a while. Nearly four months to be exact. Bleh, not so cute if I’m being honest. In fact I’m typing this during the first intermission of a Knights game because this is one of the first times I’ve been able to actually sit down and do nothing in a long time.
It started back in the spring, this idea of constantly being on the move. Whether I actually had a mile-long to do list or I was making things up to keep busy – I was always doing something. But not only was I was always doing something, I also felt like I always had to be doing something.
This trend continued throughout the summer. Weeks spent preparing for weekends. Weekends spent going somewhere or doing something. And the following week spent with recovering from weekends while simultaneously preparing for the next thing.
At the end of July my mom and I went on a trip to a wellness retreat in Vermont, one hour east of Burlington and 20 minutes south of Canada. Cell phone service was spotty but there was wi-fi at our bed and breakfast.
I made the decision to completely turn my phone off for the week. No service, no wi-fi, no contact to the outside world. And it was fantastic. There was no pressure to post on social media or stay updated on what was happening in the world. I don’t know if I’ve ever felt that peaceful as an adult.
Ever since I got back, I haven’t felt the need to post on social media as much if at all. I’ve still been doing my personal writing, still been watching the Knights and still been running. Living my life without posting. While that’s been nice, I do think I’m back to a point where I actually want to post things because it seems fun again. Isn’t that what all this shit started out as anyway?
And speaking of running, it wouldn’t be marathon training without my infamous hip problems which have decided to pop back up. Lucky me. So, once again, I have decided to drop out of the full marathon and instead run the Rock n Roll Half Marathon for the third time. As disappointed as I am in not being able to run a full, I am excited to run the half. I think this is the satisfaction that comes with listening to your body and acting according to what it needs.
I will also be participating in the 5K the night before as well as the virtual Rocky Run (the actual run takes place in Philadelphia). So after next weekend I will have earned 4 medals: the virtual 5K Rocky Run, the Rock n Roll 5K, the Rock n Roll Half Marathon and a Rock n Roll challenge medal for running two races in one weekend. Plus, I’ll be participating with my family again which made last year so special. All in all, I’m looking forward to this upcoming weekend.
Yesterday I was thinking about how much I enjoy training for half marathons. They are definitely a challenge to prepare for while still being manageable which I find fun and exciting. And that got me thinking – do I even want to run a full marathon?
Woah, I know – a major shock coming from me. But you know what, at this point I don’t know if I really want to and that’s okay because I’m good with my decision. Perhaps this is also what I’ve learned by taking some time for myself and not being so immersed in social media.
Will I ever be the kind of person who posts everything that I’m thinking or doing everyday? Probably not. I’m finding that it’s more fun when it happens organically. I’m done putting pressure on myself to “blog everyday” or keep up with what’s going on. I know who I am. I pride myself on being aggressively self-aware and I know for a fact I am not the girl that will bring you breaking news or a breakdown of the salad I’m making. Because I’m probably too busy eating it, forgetting to take a picture of it and struggling to make it through Mad Men. I’m so bored of that show y’all…
Anyway, I wanted to let the world know that I’m back, because, I finally feel like being back. In the next few weeks I’ll be posting about the festivals I went to this summer and possibly some more about my time in Vermont. I’ve also decided to start doing Throwback Thursdays on my Instagram dedicated to those pictures I never got around to posting this year.
So stay tuned because I’m going to be making a greater effort at this in the way that I want to. I can’t really tell you what’s going on because I don’t even really know myself! But I do think it will be good!