Last week, I talked about needing to adapt my life to ensure I could fit in my training. I reflected on my almost perfect success in waking up at 4am to run. So I felt really good about going into the rest of last week in terms of running.
Well, Team…I’m here to tell you that I neglected to wake up to run three days in a row last week. On Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday mornings, the alarm went off at 4am and I proceeded to click the Snooze button for the next hour (or two.)
In those moments, I surely did not have any self-control to discipline myself into getting my ass out of bed to work the program. Nope, none at all. I was perfectly content to listen to “24k Magic” every eight minutes for the next hour. (Yes, that’s my ringtone – I’m diehard for Bruno.)
So, I had to have a little pep talk with myself during Thursday night yoga. I wanted to cut the shit and make sure that I completed the training program to the best of my ability. Envisioning myself at the race in November, helped get me back on track. I don’t want to be there at the starting line unprepared. So I have to kick my own ass now. Easier said than done, right?
I don’t have a secret to forcing myself out of the bed in the morning to run (which I did for the rest of last week), but I can tell you it starts with forgiving yourself for failing in the past. And then moving on from it. And also talking to yourself, out loud. It’s fine. Totally fine.
Forgiveness of self is a big theme on this blog (like here!), and I think it’s crucial to carrying on with life. It takes practice and it certainly doesn’t come overnight. Even though I’ve gotten pretty good at not stressing about my shortcomings in the past, I will tell you it takes ongoing practice. There are times when I get major anxiety about the things I’ve failed at and can’t change. Whether it be a workout, shit I’ve said at work, shit I’ve done while out and about or anything else in between, sometimes it causes me anxiety.
I think that’s ok, however, because it allows us to all connect on a basic level: the human level. We are all humans and we will all make mistakes. We will have good days and bad days. We will succeed and we will fail. But at the end of the day, we are all humans.
So just keep in mind that no one is perfect and we’re all trying to live the best lives that we can! And always remember to forgive yourself…and sleep in whenever possible. : )